Lately, I have found myself in a beautiful place in my walk with Christ. After an incredible Lifegroup meeting last Thursday, September 13th, and then seeing Hillsong Live the day after, along with Church, friends, and then to top it all off, on Monday I decided last minute I needed extra sleep so instead of getting up a half hour early to be in the word I was going to sleep, BUT GOD IS SO COOL that he said NO you NEED MORE TIME WITH ME!!! and my 8:30 class was cancelled. I got to spend a WHOLE HOUR with him before I started my week. HOW COOL IS THAT??? I was in such a good place going into my week, after that incredible weekend and then a beautiful morning with him, he decided to bless me EVEN MORE! I had a beautiful meeting with my 1:12 partner and on my way to the music building to practice, Yahweh came on my iPod. As I was walking, I was having a private convo with God and at some point the music came to the part “AND HE SHALL REIGN FOREVER!!!” and I was just so moved that I began crying while walking to the CMA. I came to the realization that God is SOOOOO GOOD!!!
Well, as you can tell I had a good start to my week, but as we all know, the devil likes to intervene and try to bring you down from your happy place. And for a moment, I let him. I received my exam score on a recent exam that I took and worked really hard for and it was not what I had hoped to get. For how much time I spent preparing I was just not satisfied with the grade I received. It took every ounce of my being to not let my wall start crumbling in front of the whole class, because as fast as God captured my heart this weekend, Satan was on the attack and ready to tear me down. Good thing for you readers, and of course me, GOD IS SO MUCH GREATER THAN SATAN! I got to my next class which happens to be with my bestfriend Kaitlyn and she just turns around to me, hands me a card, and says, “I NEED ENCOURAGEMENT”. and I told her I was in need of some as well. So we both shared the bible verse that was on our hearts and gave it to each other. Want to know what God shared with us? this is what he had laid on my heart:
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[ whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. -James 1:2-4
this is what he shared with kaitlyn for me (she gave me John 15:1-11 but I have just pasted 9-11 on here):
As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.
God had been preparing me for that day. So many of my verses have been about trials and testing of my faith. He has been consistantly reminding me that no matter what I will go through it can only produce good fruit and perseverance. Faith in him and relying on him is what has been getting me through all this. I know that this isn’t the last time I will face obstacles, but I can’t let these obstacles keep me from loving God because the truth of the matter is HE NEVER STOPS LOVING ME. Even when I mess up, he is still there. I cannot say it enough. I have been in such a good place even though my week hasn’t been the greatest. God has been allowing me to use my gifts more and more, like last night doing worship at the Women’s Bible Study. I just am so amazed at how he is just continually showing me his love even when I don’t always see or feel it. IT DOESN’T STOP! I wanted to share this with all of you so that maybe it can shed some light on your current obstacle that stands between you and your heavenly father. He does not stop loving you, even if you feel alone and abandoned, that is when is is reaching for you desparately, wanting you to know that he is and always has been there with you every step of the way.
Let me tell you just one more thing that has impacted my life. WORSHIP DOES NOT STOP AT THE EXIT DOORS OF YOUR CHURCH. Worship is our way of thanking God, of loving Christ, and allowing the Holy Spirit to just fill our hearts and bring us closer to the one who created us. It is something we should be doing continually. Never ceasing to give him thanks for all that he does for us.
I hope you can feel the Holy Spirit moving in your life, and that you can be in continual worship with our Lord and Savior. Have hope when you face trials because it can only produce good things as long as you rely and trust in God to bring you through it. Let go, and LET GOD.